Hello World

So I havent wrote? written? (those two words always confuse me) in a while, i guess i have been busy trying to be busy procrastinating my study. I have an assignment due tomorrow at 5pm and i have a strange feeling i will sleep until atleast 2, so hopefully i can finish it. I would also like to note my word at the start of the holidays being. i will study and catch up on my german vocab. Of course i havent started that yet either.

The worst part is that even though i dont study i still get good grades, so when i do have to study, i subconsciously dont want to study because i subconsciously think i will get good grades anyway, even though i know that i need to study to get good grades. Kinda confusing i know but i wrote it as it came out :D

Also if i have not motivation to do something i do mind doing how am i going to get the motivation to do the things i dont want to do, oh the issues, its awesome that all i have to write about is about not doing things, maybe i should start doing things and maybe then i wouldnt be as boring slash bored.

Anyway what have i been doing. ummm i went to the shops and bought some chippies and filled up my car so now my mouth tastes like crap because i ate too many chips. so really today, i slept. ate, drunk, and sat on the computer. SUCCESSS :D

someone please force me to do uni work tomorow, i really do want moar As thanks :D anyway time for sleep, rawr

P.S. i couldnt find any pretty pictures so i figured i would draw one. Now it may look amazing i know, but i must say it was a challenge using the laptop touch pad. But i feel i conquered it :)

Me doing my study

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Anger, Sadness, Fear, Anxiety and Depression

Emotions are a pain in the ass most the time, they will bring you down, get in the way of what you want to achieve or something along those lines. But they aren't there to bring us down, in fact they are actually here to lift us up, i think when experiencing these emotions slightly or extremely it helps a lot to understand the true reasons your body is producing those emotions, in general they are there to motivate and uplift you, trying to make you change your life for the better, even help survive through tough times.

Fear is a powerful motivator but it can also bring us down, it is useful in situations where it would prevent us from being reckless but sometimes can get in the way of a goal we want to achieve or something similar. This is one i really struggle with in a lot of things and i guess it is useful to remind you of the dangers but to just consider if the situation is really that threatening. Sometimes its just a fear of being exposed or rejected, which in most cases isn't that threatening and through practice of confronting fears you know you have, it can be easier. Just do it :)

Associated with fear is anxiety. Because it is natural for us to be afraid, it is also natural for us to experience anxiety. Anxiety urges us to act to end, or at least master, the dangers that threaten us. If we were never anxious, there would be little motivation to make changes in our lives. Anxiety is good; however, anxiety can also have a  pretty bad impact on us. Anxiety can overwhelm us to the point where we become confused, immobilised and a number of other things. I think the real solution is to try and control your anxieties and/or deal with them directly, its hard but it is manageable.

Anger is a destructive emotion which is usually caused by the inability to reach a goal, anger encourages impulsive reactions, irrational behavior, poorly thought-out decisions, and, in some instances, an “I quit” attitude, and some more, i don't think its really that helpful. In my opinion there are two main ways to deal with the anger, one is using the anger to try and motivate yourself/ focus your anger into your task if you really have to do it, otherwise to step back walk away and preoccupy yourself somewhere else... before you break it, dont punch your monitor. Turns out they are expensive.

It would be a rare for a person not get to sad, at least momentarily. As sadness deepens, we label the feeling “depression.” Depression is closely linked with frustration and anger. The frustrated person becomes more and more angry as he fails to reach his goals. If the anger does not help the person to succeed, then the frustration level goes even higher. A destructive cycle between anger and frustration continues until the person becomes worn down-physically, emotionally, and/or mentally. When a person reaches this point, he starts to give up, and his focus shifts from “What can I do” to “There is nothing I can do.” Depression is an expression of this hopeless, helpless feeling. There is nothing wrong with being sad as you temporarily think about whatever you feel you are missing (eg. loved ones) Such thoughts, in fact, can give you the desire to try harder. On the other hand, if you allow yourself to become depressed, then it can seriously bring you down, making it extremely hard to get out of sometimes. When you are depressed its good to get out and go against what you are feeling. There is really a lot to say about depression and not enough time. Those are my thoughts anyway :)

Judgmentalism

I am tired and want to sleep so i will probably make this short but every day when walking to and from uni, i see it all the time, i see it at uni and i read it in the uni magazine, and that's people being judgemental.

The main thing i hate is not so much the judging because to be honest sometimes its valid, eg not wanting to hang out with that person because he smokes meth. (which isnt so much being judgemental anyway). but what really annoys me is people thinking they are above someone else because that person that is below them doesnt portray the kind of actions that they themselves would portray. It is arrogant and rude and something that happens much too much in the center of the city or really pretty much anywhere else you go.

Im definately not trying to say is that all man were created equal because that is really not quite true, but what is true is that you arent better then someone because you have some better qualities and you will never have the right to make that conclusion. The only person one can judge is themself and you should judge youself because failing to do so may hinder your ability to become a better person. And becoming a better person is goooood :)

Now I was going to stop there but i read that, "calling other people judgemental makes you no different then them" which.... is true, but what i think its that its not the actual judging that is the bad part but what you do with what you make from the judgements, you will judge things subconsciously every day just because thats how the human mind works. But dont look down on people because they are different. thats all im saying

Question Authority

One thing that i am big on believing is to believe nothing until proven to you, obviously this wont apply to everything eg.

Friend 1: hey Jeff i saw a dog swimming in the river today (figured if i said "friend 1" would seem like i have more then 1 friend)

Me: have you got analytical data to support you statement? >:(

nononon i mean with more serious statements

obviously trivial things dont need to be questioned. I find after going through school, people are getting raised to learn what the teachers tell them, there is no real proof or reasoning behind anything, its just X is true, which is not a very logical stance to take.

Now i have had this argument many a time and it is mainly about religion i guess so i will use that in this example here, now i hold nothing against religious views and if someone worships zues then i will respect that, thats cool. But if someone was to expect me to believe it because of some case it would not be wise to just accept the claims without first questioning the 'authority', why should i believe it? And no because 100 years ago a group of people saw the sun dance does not count. First of all a third person source is normally very unreliable as you never know what someone has missed or edited out of the evidence, another thing people try to say is that because something cannot be explained it is therefore explained (eg. i saw the tv turn on by itself therefore its a supernatural power) all this really tells you is you dont know why the tv turned on itself

Anyway this leads back to the point of questioning authority, now this means if someone or come corporation tells you something without really supporting their statement with evidence its ok to say, why should i believe that, and ask for further evidence and this is something i feel is being neglected to be taught in schools and anywhere else really, children should be encouraged to question authority as they are growing up. It encourages creative thinking, open mindedness (willingness to believe statements that are not what you believe given the evidence presented is sufficient) , critical thinking, and better understanding of their true beliefs (wont believe things because the man in the straw house told me its true)

Obviously its impractical to question everything but its good to question somethings at least a little especially in this world full of liars, crazy people and con men. it would be great if all truth statements presented to us were always true but thats not the case. So yep, thats what i think. I encourage questioning everyone and everything :D