Urgh

Im hungry, i was meant to bring food to uni but i forgot. Yes its a sad day, very sad... i could go buy food, but turns out my university is on a giant hill that im not keen on walking back up. So now im conflicted on whether i should fight my hunger or go and buy some food. The creepy chick stroking the creepy guys hair outside my computer lab is kinda pushing me towards leaving the room of nerds. Seriously its very weird, i guess i cant really talk being a weird nerd myself but atleast i dont stroke long haired ginger men in public.

What makes the course i do worse is the nerds that talk about the most retarded shit you have heard in your life, my school magazine has this pretty funny section where a guy gets together overheard things said by retards and puts them in. Im pretty sure 50% of those are Software Engineering and Computer Science students, its things like talking about their dreams of being a jedi warrior and how awesome it would be to have a light sabre fight on a over bridge, There was this one statement from someone in my german class on there "Is Africa a continent?" sometimes i wonder how these people get into uni. Although it doesnt suprise me considering they give university entrance to maori students by default. Sweet as.

Anyway i guess thats it for that rant. On the other hand it was a freezing day today and the train company decided to come to the train station late, so i froze to death and then it got stuck for 15 minutes, which made me like 10 minutes late, I was not happy >:( angry face.

Sooo since my stomach is turning inside and this chick and ginger man is getting really freaky i better get going.

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Everything Sucks

I have found i haven't written about how life sucks or anything depressing for a while, so i think its long overdue. Life sucks full stop. Everytime i hear someone trying to tell me why life doesn't suck, it just makes me realise even more why life sucks.

I am back into the phase of, Life is boring, and mmaann its boring. I am constantly finding myself looking for something to do but never finding anything to do, i kept myself distracted for a bit with a little programming project, but now that that's died down there is nothing to do again, but yet, even though i cant find anything i cant find the time to do study and uni work. How this works i dont know... I can somehow burn hours on the computer merely opening and closing windows on the desktop and clicking randomly on facebook.

Yes my life has amounted to desktop staring and facebook clicks, that along with sleep and eat is all i really got. I guess now with university i have to haul my sorry ass onto the train and to university but university sucks equally as much as desktop staring.

Sooo, what makes life so wonderful and beautiful. The answers you will hear will be, Love, Family, Friends and Jobs etc etc, but what about all those things makes life so great, and if those are the things that bring happiness then why isn't the population and community happier.

Now I dont know if you could ever define what a good life is, because either, its different for different people, or maybe there isnt a such thing. It seems to me i am least bored with life when i am somewhat distracted by something. When i have a drive to achieve something or to a achieve a goal, maybe even having a passion towards something (which is something i dont entirely have). But as i see it, all these things are just a distraction from how life sucks.

 

 

Poor Earth is sad because he doesn't bring joy

In the end, we are born into a world, where we spend most of our life trying to become a person through education, into getting a job, so we can get money to achieve some greater goal. But most of the time in our life is spent trying to get somewhere to the point it seems, we spend our life trying to build a future only to have it cut short. (by death or some other means)

I guess what i'm trying to say in short is that, we live, go through education, get a job and work, potentially have a family and a house, then die. unfortunately, unless you inherit a large amount of money or something similar the average person has to live this life so i guess for now, I have to deal with it. I would like to finish on the fact that sure, someone's life may suck and be boring, but that doesn't mean ones life is unhappy. So... i guess it could be much worse :D

Everything and Anything

So back to university on tuesday, my exam marks were good considering the study i put out and im happy with them. Now i need to see what i can do for this overseas exchange, still need to write two essays for it and try and get a hold of the person in germany, who apparently (as i was warned) doesnt reply to emails. So I dont know how im going to sort that one out.

Now im struggling to to think of what to write so its going to be something very random, like death. Death is a hard part of life that people tend to ignore until its on your doorstep, its a tough thing to confront but there is nothing worse then having it spring on you and all of a sudden you are left lost and confused. Death happens every day all across the world to multiple people and is an important part of life.

There isnt much to really say about it other than the fact you should always be prepared for it no matter what, that means acknowledging  and accepting the fact that it could be right around the corner for anyone and its especially around the corner for old and sick people. I had a friend who was diagnosed with a flu or something by a retard doctor, turns out she had bronchitis and died. Its alright to be sad at first, but its not alright to be cut about it forever, I personally think the best way to deal with death is to be ready for it before it happens. I actually believe thats the case with almost everything in life, if you are mentally and/or physically prepared for it, its likely there wont be a problem.

Its also important to make sure although to acknowledge and think about death, you dont let it bring you down (through fears etc), thinking about death can provoke fear and anxiety which are natural feelings that are hard to get rid of, i dont actually think there is a dead set way to get rid of them, its most likely different for different people but if you can figure it how it works best for you, then you will find life easier through the hard times. I find for myself its good to have some time to myself and relax, or maybe even question myself, try and reason my way out of it, which sometimes works but thats just me.

ANNNYYWAAY its like 5am so i better head out cheaaa.

ooh i dunno

So I fully came across a saying which i was like yes and nodded my head, the saying/quote being

Life isn’t about finding yourself. Life is about creating yourself
- George Bernard Shaw

Now not so much what life is about, because i dont believe anyone can make the conclusion for that, but moreso the fact you can create and shape who you are as much as you want. If you want to be a different person you can be, if you want to be a lazy musician then you can, the brain is a dark and mysterious thing, even now we know little about it. But i do know that it is very adaptable and nearly anyone has the ability to do anything and become good at anything.

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I highly believe people can change, I personally am a crazy and i am crazy because i want to be, if i want to be something else then i just change it. Another example seems unrelated but its a similar thing, I dont like onions, i hate them. But i garuntee i could teach myself to love onions, to the point where i would eat them raw. The sky is the limit really and when it comes to changing someone you want to change, with good will power and discipline nearly anything is possible.

People seem to think that they have to find what kind of person they are etc etc, but what i say is make yourself the person you want to be and always know you can change that, I am really talking about a whole lot of nothing at the moment so ill stop, but i guess what im trying to say is if you find yourself wanting to be something else, then do it. There is nothing standing in your way normally and if there is then maybe secretly its not what you want. On the other hand knowing what you want is something that is very hard to figure out, something I myself dont know

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Life likes lies

I will start by saying, I like lies and so does life, I don't mean i like being lied to about important information that would otherwise improve my life, i mean i like white lies. If it doesn't matter if i know the truth and it improves someone's life by making them feel more comfortable then go ahead.

What i like to think is, there is no point telling the truth if it is of no benefit to anyone and especially if there is no benefit to you. Its like people seem to think the world would be a better place without lies, while this is true with some lies i garuntee the world would not be a better place without lies.

Since i have run out of things for lies i will talk about something else that annoys me, and its people that add random comments of no substance to a conversation or argument. I do it, everyone does it when they get mad im pretty sure, but it still annoys me, so next time you think about spitting out an offensive comment when there is no point. (e.g. it wont make you or that person feel better, then dont say it) And kinda related to that, dont get offended about things that are true, its just retarded.

PEACE OUT HOMIES