Saturday, 28 May 2011

Creal and Human Sacrifice... MMMMM

I find it hard to write when im dead bored and really am not in the mood to turn on the brain but i have decided to force myself, just to be a mad dog. that doesnt make any sense whatsoever but I will so just pretend it does make sense. Anyway i just totally lost my thought path. I was trying to get a extension for my browser that fixed grammar for me because im mega lazy. but it wasnt working and was just making me mad so i deleted it, IM PROUD OF MY GRAMMAR MISTAKES YEAAAH.

So cereal as a midnight snack, best... snack... ever... i went there, dont be hating because you know cereal is the snack of the gods. like if i was god and had cereal in my cupboard i would go and eat it as a snack. yeah i think you get the point. snaaackk.




on a side note i was going to buy pizza for dinner yes thats right pizza but it was like $17 for a crappy fatty pizza, i mean who pays that kind of money, its absurd, back in my day they were only $6. I can finally say that, back in my day, back in my day we used cassettes not DVDs, back in my day we danced around fires and sacrificed humans to the ottolord. well... maybe not that, aber ich habe eine Frage. what is the ottolord? and why must you sacrifice humans?

I am glad you asked, well the ottolord was a once powerful warrior, know to man as a god, it was said that he was immortal. to roam the earth for all eternity, that he alone had the power to move mountains and evaporate lakes or oceans, whatever impresses your more. anyway there was a devious young man called yotti, yotti was the trickster of the world and was out to trick the ottolord into giving yotti the power that the ottolord possesses. So yotti planned a trap, he created and placed a device (yotti was also very clever) that would steal his power when the ottolord went to move the mountain into his lair. Ottolord realised instantly because of his wit, and at that moment he knew he was too powerful to be roaming with man, so he destroyed himself to go to the 11th dimension. So now man sacrificing unworth humans in the hopes that the ottolord will respect their sacrifice and return to the earth.



So instead of doing uni work, im writing random crap. welcome to the life of Jeff :D

Friday, 27 May 2011

Fears

Fears are a daunting things, i at the moment am going through doubt etc etc. So I am planning on going to an exchange to a german university next year in the october semester and really am doubting if my german will be good enough. If I will get home sick, 6 months is a long time in another country. I have been waiting all this time to get away and try something like this so i will go for it if im 95% sure. Which at the moment i am but really i guess its a matter of just getting more information on the fact.



I will be doing a 10 week course prior to the semester which is meant to prepare you for it, but im not 100% sure what the deal is with it, it says that it prepares you for the semester, but its has no prerequisites and seems like 10 weeks is an awfully quick amount of time to teach someone fluent German. even if it is 22 hours a week. I guess thats something i should find out. Another option is that i go to England but heh im not really so keen on that. Germany is just awesome and i would love to go there more then anywhere. I think if i was not to go I would try again for fourth year.

So fears and anxiety i guess, how do i deal with it. I am a strong believer in just ignoring it most the time and instead of listening to your feelings listen to your brain. Going into something unknown or somewhat shady will always make you feel out of your comfort zone but thats how it is sometimes and if you let your fears and feelings control you then you will be stuck in a ball your whole life never able to escape. That to me is much scarier then taking a step out into the unknown.

I garuntee that if i went and all went well, it would be the most amazing experience of my life. That alone is enough to make me want to go except for under dire circumstances (like my german not being good enough to do the courses i guess or my leg being chopped off and the plane company discriminates against 1 legged people) . Not only would it be germany for 6 months but it would also be Italy, France, Austria and Switzerland if those are the countries i decide on at the time, thats just now and those are very flexible.


You should always keep in the back of your mind with things that circumstances change. Things can get better or worse at any moment, your aspirations and dreams can change at any moment. This is one of those things that helps you get through the tough situations in life, just being prepared mentally for the worst and when it comes if it does (hopefully it doesnt) it wont stab you in the back and you would have already spent some thought on it. So hopefully you will have a better plan then it catching you be suprise and your brain locking up from all the fears and anxieties that some with a crisis...

Thats it for now, i think i went a bit off topic a fews times and it was only meant to be a short post but hey i think its alright

Monday, 23 May 2011

Irrationality

Everyone should strive to be a rational person, the problem is most humans are irrational and it can be frustrating. I will start by saying every human is somewhat irrational because not only do we want to strive to be rational but we should also try and be somewhat moral two, these two ideas are somewhat conflicting so its good to find the balance.

The first thing i want to point out to taking steps towards the goal is dont disregard any knowledge without first seeing its evidence. If it is a conflicting idea to what you have but has more evidence then maybe its time to reasses your beliefs. You should almost never dispose of information because its conflicting to your ideas, from my point of view all information is good information. the more you know better the person you can be.

Secondly and this not only helps you become more rational but also sometimes even more moral but always try look at the mistakes you have made, the irrational actions and analyse why it truely went wrong. Naturally your brain is going to try rationalise it to be rational, you want to avoid this. Step in and use your brain yourself. By doing this not only are you helping your brain by acting more rationally, it encourages active thinking which is always helpful. You will find yourself becoming less annoyed, angry and sad. The reason this is is because when your subconscious rationalises it you will actually change your memory of the situation and how it happened (i have forgotten the term but this was in a study) if you step in before this happens and look truely at what went wrong and why, you will block out any feelings of anger towards this mistake which in your eyes isnt happening but you are just having a shit time. If you can step in and stop this and find the mistake, you can start making steps towards fixing it.Which leads me to my final point of these points, fixing problems and flaws within your personality will in general just make you a more likeable person.

To extend on that point i would like to say you can train your brain to do anything, and i mean nearlly everything physically possible by a human. There was a man i forget his name but it isnt important to the example, anyway he never excelled at maths at school and was always getting semi-mediocre marks across the board. Once he set out to become good at maths he became recognised as one of the greatest mathematical minds. This is just an extrondinary example of the capibilties of the human brain and that nothing about yourself is set in stone.

People say you cant change, i not only say you can but i say you do. As life goes on links in your brain strengthen and weaken changing characteristics in yourself and changing the way you act and what you are good at.

I guess what i want to say is if there is something that needs changing just change it, its easy to say but it is really hard to do. Although through good mental practice you can effectively change anything you want in yourself (anything mentally ofcourse, if you are ugly then your brain cant help sorry).

Now these are just a few points but very large ones, just start by recognising when you make the mistake at the time, correct yourself. keep doing this. Its a little bit like preparing for an exam and wiping out bad habits you have in the subject. practice an exam, and go through it checking your answers. be hard and critical on yourself, punish yourself for making mistake and be sure to keep on trying to recognise where you are doing those dreaded mistakes. Once you got this it gets much easier to fix flaws you might not like in yourself.


You control your brain, you have the key. Use it and take control, become more of an active thinker and you will find yourself learning more, becoming a better person, making better life choices and in general helping yourself more then you would if you let your brain run on autopilot.

Not many pretty picture today its late and im tired, not a smidge of proof reading either

Thursday, 12 May 2011

Lonely Studiless Nights

SOOOOOOOOOO I got a haircut yesterday, and I am still contemplating whether it was a good idea or not given i have to go to a wedding on saturday. Here ill be scarred into history with this haircut, which could potentially look better? I dont know.... all i do know is that i like apple crumble... yes, i ate apple crumble and that shit was good.

Lately i have been finding it hard to motivate myself to do uni work, its like when you stop doing it 2 hours is gone. OMG my phone is like screwing up so every day or so i wake up 3 hours late for uni and see my phone having an epileptic seizure on my bed. DAMN PHONE wake me up... that with demotivation is bad. Soo i have been considering a fixed schedule to follow with study hours and all that, but is that really the answer. For starters that never works, its always, yeah ill do it in 30 mins, and that turns into tomorrow. So i guess the question is how do you get motivation for something that is dull.

Reminded me of university

I hear the reasoning, you have to do things you dont want to do sometimes, which i think is flawed logic, because if you are doing something you dont want to do you are doing it because you want to achieve something therefore you want to do it because you want to achieve that something. Confused? yes me too lets give myself an example. I need to go to the shops to buy food but im too lazy. If i dont i will starve. I dont want to starve. So i go and buy the food. My motivation was, i dont want to starve, therefore i wanted to do it. Now if only i could apply that to university as, i dont want to fail which seems like the only possible motivation. The problem is at the moment, I dont care...

So whats the first step, making myself care? maybe not, is there another way to motivate yourself to study, maybe turn it into a game, like strip poker, get together with a bunch of friends and play, strip study, eh eh eh. Ok sorry that was a terrible idea, i dont think turning study into a game is the solution either. To be honest i wish i had a robot that locked me in a room with my work until i did enough of it then let me out. That would be an easy solution, but possibly this is a solution i could use. No not the robot... but the isolation. I think isolating yourself is a semi more effective way the telling yourself to do it, how likely are you to sit in an empty room with study materials... until you study... and not study.

Now thats what i was talking about, thats another motivation right there, getting to go do what you want to do given you finish study. If i sit in an isolated room until i finish my work i have another motivation to do it. Now the only problem with that is keeping myself in the room, and the fact 3/4 of my degree is done on the computer/internet, and that alone is something i want to do. hmmm, looks like that isn't a solution either. So... so far, i have wrote a bunch of nothing to get no where.

Looks like for now atleast im out of answers, but i will find it at some point, maybe once i move out ill find some way to keep myself studying, I guess what makes it so hard is being in an enviroment where there is so much to distract you (the internet/ computers).

Tuesday, 3 May 2011

University Starts

So turns out classes are a waste of time, the classes i do best in are the classes i don't go to... (not counting German but i love German) speaking of Germans, today the hot Germans chick sitting next to me was trying to communicate with me. How did i reply, I sat there saying i dunno... because i don't understand Germans (don't ask how i get A's I was born this way. LUL GETTIT) I just get so nervous around crazy Germans tehehehheeheh.

So I am talking to snow white, and telling her to write a blog, but she says she will look crazy so all the better right? ANYWAY MAKE A BLOG. I KNOW YOU WILL READ THIS AND I PUT IT IN CAPS SO YOU WILL READ IT FIRST. YES I KNOW THIS IS DISTRACTING AND CATCHING YOUR EYE. START ONE GOGO. Ok I'm done with that. I would just like to apologies to anyone who found that annoying i am deeply sorry (mmm).

Hmm yeah, so while we are on the topic of shout-outs. Tim you are a fag (not judging or anything), and E dogg which is your new nickname as of now... for me only, you are awesome, keep being awesome.

So, anyway, today i was in the jungle right and I came across this tiger... it was the largest tiger i had ever seen. The light reflected off its pelt and it peered down at me with a threatening look, I didn't back down because I'm a man, we then (me and the tiger) went on to a battle to the death, it was an epic battle and i managed to wrestle it to the ground. And only after proving my dominance did i let it go (because i am also noble). Now if I was really in a jungle and i really did come across a giant tiger, thats how it would go down...