After spending all day procrastinating my uni work to play video games and chat with friends i am sitting here with noone online, (except my friend who for some randomly stopped talking to me which makes me want to punch something) I started to think how crap uni is and life is boring, and searched google to only find people saying. live in the now and not to your expectations, do what you want to do at the moment and to be honest, i already live like that and really isnt working for me. So here i am, looking for something to do on this lonely night attempting to write (i was never any good at english) but i think its good for me getting my thoughts down on paper
So its 4am and i have just been thinking to myself how dull and unexciting life really is. how we a born into a world, go into education so we can get a job, get a job so we can support a family then die and have your children do the same and how really depressing that sounds, im not unhappy by any means. I like my life and i think im very fortunate with what i have, but i cant help but be bored of everything.
Now im not being emo but really, why do we live to only die, sure you can say go out there and make it worthwhile and i probably will do that once i finish my degree. but i have tried going out to town with friends, toking it up with some of my friends, getting drunk and throwing up on peoples curtains and carpet, knitting a booty for my imaginary baby etc. etc. and i am yet to find something that really takes me in. so really i guess the real question is what is fun and what is exciting now in this world, or what is my place. I have always wanted to travel and was going to last year in december before my plans were stopped due to some unforeseen problem created by my idiocy but regardless i am going to struggle to travel until i finish my degree which means 3 long years of boredom ahead.
I was talking to my friend Simon a few hours ago and he is a lot like me in the way his personality is in many ways, and he agrees. We went on to talk about a few things like, if we won lotto which is 27 mil atm, and how it would mean we could finally just drop everything and do whatever we want whenever we want. but i still ask, would that be enough to bring excitement to life or is it something else that brings excitement? one idea was, maybe we can live our own little island, just give us a computer and supplies to live, and we will be sweet, just going wherever the day takes us with no obligations.
I guess at the end of the day it doesnt really matter considering its a unrealistic circumstance but it makes me wonder. im quite a stubborn person and do what i want to do when i feel like it. i dont want to do my report because i dont like writing reports, but its also because writing reports are boring, so i go off to do something else, which is also boring. and i dont think money would change that much. so it brings me back to the question, how do i get out of this rut of being bored in life.
i have this idea that maybe once i finish my degree i can move overseas and live in Germany or America and the change of scenery will be a more enjoyable and idea of being somewhere which is unfamiliar seems somewhat exciting. but will it make things better? the only way ill know is if i try, i guess the real question is, are the girls hotter? because sex is everything right? ok no not really, but still that is a important question ;)
Now that i have written this i realise that i am probably a horribly boring writer and ill read over my writing and fall asleep, maybe i can find some pretty pictures so atleast then it will look awesome. and besides putting pretty pictures on means i spend less time doing uni work! which is what is important at the end of the day.
