Loneliness

I agree that fear and love are the most powerful motivators in this world, and thats why i think the fear of losing someone you love is the worst feeling in the world. There is nothing worse then everything being alright in the world when all of a sudden something goes wrong and that feeling comes, the fear of losing someone you love. At that point I at least will be willing to ignore anything to get rid of that fear, to grasp onto that love as long as i can.

I am not good at losing things that i want either, so when it comes to something that large in my life ill try anything including ignoring mistakes, which is terrible because they always resurface. So thats where i am faced with the problem of Loneliness vs. a shitty relationship (yes i have somehow rolled into relationships).\

Normally, I am ok with loneliness its just the fear of not knowing that comes with the loneliness, I am really the person who needs to know everything, and not knowing if i will or will not find someone better scares me, you never know if the girl that was perfect for you was the girl you just let go and thats another reason why I cant let go of people.

In the end I think there is always someone around the corner to love just as much or more no matter what, someone else that will make you feel the same or better.Anyway I believe you leave the relationship with more experience and come out a better person for that time you meet the one you will spend your life with ;)

So its best to let go, as hard as it is and its definitely something i need to work on.