Christmas and new years was cool, I have been working a lot lately, hoping to save enough money to set myself up overseas long enough to find a job, if i can't get a job overseas then i guess im screwed and will have to come back to NZ but eeh. You just gotta go where life takes you i guess.
I guess ill start with work. I have been working in hamilton which is like 4 hours north of me, it sucks really. You don't realise how nice it is to have a home to come back to after work until you are living out of a motel for over a week. Honestly there is nothing worse than getting home after working a 12 hour day and you cant even lay on your bed or watch your tv or go on your computer. On top of that the work is shit, shit hours, long days and for lots of days. the pay is good but i sometimes wonder if its actually worth it.
I guess the real reason i do it is to help out my dad, he is a real cunt sometimes which is why noone want to work for him, its probably where i get my cuntiness from which i might get to later, the other thing that sucks is that its physical labour, you will finish work and you have cut and bruised hands, a sore back, you smell like shit and you are are covered in muck. I actually almost died one day i was up there. i was on a cherry picker, which is just a piece of machinery with a big arm and a cage, ill put a picture, but anyway i was on it and was doing some work next to this sun shade which has this big wire rope. The controls werent working from the top so i told my dad to bring it down from the bottom. Rather than bringing it down he swings it sideways and crushes me between this steel rope and the cage of the cherry picker.
thats pretty much it, he just moved it the other way and brought it down but i felt shit. i had this huge welt across my waist where is caught me and i did not feel well. I dont know how people stay calm is those situations but fuck i freaked out. If i had to think with a clear head quickly in a life threatening situation i would be fucked, I actually wanted to try and improve that but, i dunno where i would start or when i could be bothered i guess.
Atleast i got a day off from that anyway i guess, and it was a goood sleep too. anyway im slowly dying here so im going to go kill myself now. jkjk SUICIDE ISNT FUNNY. I am actually getting tired, so ill have to write more in a few days. CHOW YAYA
