Thursday, 12 May 2011

Lonely Studiless Nights

SOOOOOOOOOO I got a haircut yesterday, and I am still contemplating whether it was a good idea or not given i have to go to a wedding on saturday. Here ill be scarred into history with this haircut, which could potentially look better? I dont know.... all i do know is that i like apple crumble... yes, i ate apple crumble and that shit was good.

Lately i have been finding it hard to motivate myself to do uni work, its like when you stop doing it 2 hours is gone. OMG my phone is like screwing up so every day or so i wake up 3 hours late for uni and see my phone having an epileptic seizure on my bed. DAMN PHONE wake me up... that with demotivation is bad. Soo i have been considering a fixed schedule to follow with study hours and all that, but is that really the answer. For starters that never works, its always, yeah ill do it in 30 mins, and that turns into tomorrow. So i guess the question is how do you get motivation for something that is dull.

Reminded me of university

I hear the reasoning, you have to do things you dont want to do sometimes, which i think is flawed logic, because if you are doing something you dont want to do you are doing it because you want to achieve something therefore you want to do it because you want to achieve that something. Confused? yes me too lets give myself an example. I need to go to the shops to buy food but im too lazy. If i dont i will starve. I dont want to starve. So i go and buy the food. My motivation was, i dont want to starve, therefore i wanted to do it. Now if only i could apply that to university as, i dont want to fail which seems like the only possible motivation. The problem is at the moment, I dont care...

So whats the first step, making myself care? maybe not, is there another way to motivate yourself to study, maybe turn it into a game, like strip poker, get together with a bunch of friends and play, strip study, eh eh eh. Ok sorry that was a terrible idea, i dont think turning study into a game is the solution either. To be honest i wish i had a robot that locked me in a room with my work until i did enough of it then let me out. That would be an easy solution, but possibly this is a solution i could use. No not the robot... but the isolation. I think isolating yourself is a semi more effective way the telling yourself to do it, how likely are you to sit in an empty room with study materials... until you study... and not study.

Now thats what i was talking about, thats another motivation right there, getting to go do what you want to do given you finish study. If i sit in an isolated room until i finish my work i have another motivation to do it. Now the only problem with that is keeping myself in the room, and the fact 3/4 of my degree is done on the computer/internet, and that alone is something i want to do. hmmm, looks like that isn't a solution either. So... so far, i have wrote a bunch of nothing to get no where.

Looks like for now atleast im out of answers, but i will find it at some point, maybe once i move out ill find some way to keep myself studying, I guess what makes it so hard is being in an enviroment where there is so much to distract you (the internet/ computers).