Fears

Fears are a daunting things, i at the moment am going through doubt etc etc. So I am planning on going to an exchange to a german university next year in the october semester and really am doubting if my german will be good enough. If I will get home sick, 6 months is a long time in another country. I have been waiting all this time to get away and try something like this so i will go for it if im 95% sure. Which at the moment i am but really i guess its a matter of just getting more information on the fact.

I will be doing a 10 week course prior to the semester which is meant to prepare you for it, but im not 100% sure what the deal is with it, it says that it prepares you for the semester, but its has no prerequisites and seems like 10 weeks is an awfully quick amount of time to teach someone fluent German. even if it is 22 hours a week. I guess thats something i should find out. Another option is that i go to England but heh im not really so keen on that. Germany is just awesome and i would love to go there more then anywhere. I think if i was not to go I would try again for fourth year.

So fears and anxiety i guess, how do i deal with it. I am a strong believer in just ignoring it most the time and instead of listening to your feelings listen to your brain. Going into something unknown or somewhat shady will always make you feel out of your comfort zone but thats how it is sometimes and if you let your fears and feelings control you then you will be stuck in a ball your whole life never able to escape. That to me is much scarier then taking a step out into the unknown.

I garuntee that if i went and all went well, it would be the most amazing experience of my life. That alone is enough to make me want to go except for under dire circumstances (like my german not being good enough to do the courses i guess or my leg being chopped off and the plane company discriminates against 1 legged people) . Not only would it be germany for 6 months but it would also be Italy, France, Austria and Switzerland if those are the countries i decide on at the time, thats just now and those are very flexible.

You should always keep in the back of your mind with things that circumstances change. Things can get better or worse at any moment, your aspirations and dreams can change at any moment. This is one of those things that helps you get through the tough situations in life, just being prepared mentally for the worst and when it comes if it does (hopefully it doesnt) it wont stab you in the back and you would have already spent some thought on it. So hopefully you will have a better plan then it catching you be suprise and your brain locking up from all the fears and anxieties that some with a crisis...

Thats it for now, i think i went a bit off topic a fews times and it was only meant to be a short post but hey i think its alright